[ As long as Vash follows without resisting too bad, which he's playing out how it'll go when they meet... There are worse things than physical pain, though. I guess Viktor can just imagine it, he has seen too much of Knives' psyche. Love... Can become such a twisted thing, especially mixed with fear. ]
If that is what you want, then watch and observe quietly.
[ This is also just delivering Vash, isn't it? To let it happen, to look away, and to not get involved.
It's a way to survive. ]
Encourage and tell others the same when we leave and perhaps we can be without casualties.
[Oh fucking BOY. This is going to be a shit show. He swallows quietly, looking slightly hopeless in the face of this.
Great. Now he's going to be the bad guy if he tries to get everyone to not act a fool about this. Though it isn't he wants to hand Vash over so much as he... just... trusts Vash to be able to handle... all of this. It's Vash's business. If Vash is anywhere near as strong as Knives, he thinks Vash can settle it.
Also, Vash has love and support, and as much as he almost lost the care for those things, he has realized they are important.]
I don't know what about Vash makes you believe in him, Viktor, but I'm glad you are holding onto hope. They are twins, so they should be equals in the cosmic horror aspect. ]
Vash likely told them to leave me to him, didn't he? It shouldn't be too difficult.
[ Predictable. It's just a sad scenario, overall. ]
[Somehow the idiocy is the charm that belies the overall theme of being able to conquer misdirected intentions. I realized I forgot to say the earlier comment about love made me remember I have an asw for you.]
He did, but so many people here are stubborn.
[He is thinking about how he took too long to talk to Vash, and then when he was going to try, they somehow yanked his stupid, malnourished ass back to this side. Frustrating.]
[Kills Knives's insane laughter with something sentimental.]
It wouldn't have been worthless. I think he... I think it would have helped. I think he would have remembered, and he might have even liked hearing it.
[ VIKTOR REALLY WAS SO RUDE TO HIM TODAY HE THOUGHT ABOUT KILLING HIM
It's a strange thing for him to think about... Because him and Vash will likely have long lives to go. The passage of time is so different to them. ]
I never knew dead men could talk so much. [ Honestly, this ship has been the most socialization he's had since he was a child. ] What changed you here?
[He was panicking, okay. Listen. He was panicking despite knowing the answers already.
The question catches him off guard, and he hesitates thoughtfully, glancing out of the deck glass.]
I'm... not sure how much you know about me exactly... I have never... really had friends. Other children avoided me because I was a cripple and a Zaunite. And as I got older, I preferred solitude because it was what I knew, and I didn't have to navigate all of these tiresome social interactions.
I have, um, done some terrible things out of... the desperation to live, too. I wanted a normal lifespan. I was so afraid of dying and death.
I thought it would always be this way.
But I guess the answer is: dying changed me. Having what I feared most happen... made me realize the mistakes I was making.
[ they were just unrelated guinea pigs that vash decided not to explain
Knives is oddly a good listener and observer despite his superiority-inferiority complex. ]
I have little interest in your personal lives. [ Unless it benefits him. ] Not many people can say that death was a humbling experience, but you were lucky.
[ He can't relate because dying would definitely make him a worse person which is crazy because he's already bad. ]
You're still returning to death, back in your home planet.
[Because Vash was the idiot culprit. He is going to strangle that dude.
YOU NEVER KNOW, maybe dying would fix Knives, too. (delusional)]
Yes, more than likely. I don't know what the future holds for me after all this. But... I've learned... to not be afraid of the future so much that I squander the precious time I have right here in the present.
I've... made friends. And, yes, I don't think for a moment a lot of humans aren't still terrible. I won't forget how badly others treated me when I was young. But I have found ones, somehow, that aren't so bad, which makes holding onto those memories so tiring.
It would only fix Knives if he stayed permanently dead...... And seeing Vash on the brink of death would probably change his tune, too.
He isn't obtuse to know there are humans who are kinder than others, but he has seen how they turn on each other during the worst of times... He has seen them turn on his brother. His cynicism and pessimism are stronger, paranoia and fear abundant. Charles really tried his best. ]
And you have not the smallest intention of leaving to a different world.
[every time you use this icon i think it's vergil from devil may cry why do i have such fucking BAD taste in animated men]
Oh. Well, perhaps. I'd like to, but... that depends on a certain purple, horned person.
[Knives does not fucking care, but he just naturally seems a bit shy regarding this. ANYWAY.]
I don't really have any attachments. Jayce has all of our research for Hextech, so he should be fine. Wherever Lucien wants to go, I will follow for... whatever little bit of time I have left.
[People might can heal him, or whatever magic bullshittery, but he isn't going to bank so heavily on that without knowing.]
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[ They're still spotty, but for a second those blade extensions show themselves wrapping around his suit. Only for a second, though. ]
You are all so very precious to him for whatever reason. He won't stand for my cause, even though I do this for us. [ A sigh... ] It doesn't matter.
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He is frowning.]
Please don't hurt him is all I ask. I can't... stop you from doing whatever you will try, and I probably couldn't stop him either.
Just don't hurt him, and don't hurt any of us. We just want to leave.
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[ As long as Vash follows without resisting too bad, which he's playing out how it'll go when they meet... There are worse things than physical pain, though. I guess Viktor can just imagine it, he has seen too much of Knives' psyche. Love... Can become such a twisted thing, especially mixed with fear. ]
If that is what you want, then watch and observe quietly.
[ This is also just delivering Vash, isn't it? To let it happen, to look away, and to not get involved.
It's a way to survive. ]
Encourage and tell others the same when we leave and perhaps we can be without casualties.
[ Make everyone a bystander. ]
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Great. Now he's going to be the bad guy if he tries to get everyone to not act a fool about this. Though it isn't he wants to hand Vash over so much as he... just... trusts Vash to be able to handle... all of this. It's Vash's business. If Vash is anywhere near as strong as Knives, he thinks Vash can settle it.
Also, Vash has love and support, and as much as he almost lost the care for those things, he has realized they are important.]
You already know they won't listen.
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I don't know what about Vash makes you believe in him, Viktor, but I'm glad you are holding onto hope. They are twins, so they should be equals in the cosmic horror aspect. ]
Vash likely told them to leave me to him, didn't he? It shouldn't be too difficult.
[ Predictable. It's just a sad scenario, overall. ]
It's simple.
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He did, but so many people here are stubborn.
[He is thinking about how he took too long to talk to Vash, and then when he was going to try, they somehow yanked his stupid, malnourished ass back to this side. Frustrating.]
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Such is mankind's folly... But I suppose it's shared with other species.
[ Some of you are not human, he knows. ]
Did you ever talk to my brother? I'm curious.
[ you left him the debussy without explanation ]
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His brows furrow.]
A little, but... not really... in private. I had planned to so I could try to show him the parts of the song, but...
[Flips a hand, dropping it against his side.]
Someone yanked me back here before I could.
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Again with the worthless endeavor.
[ He really does think it's useless. The bridge between him and Vash had been crumbling, now nonexistent. ]
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It wouldn't have been worthless. I think he... I think it would have helped. I think he would have remembered, and he might have even liked hearing it.
[Stupid Knives.]
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You're making a lot of assumptions.
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Maybe I am. You wouldn't be the first person to tell me that.
[Scien.......]
Even if you don't get along now, it doesn't mean those times weren't important to him.
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He really doesn't know what to say and he can't really eject Viktor out because this is real life. ]
Those memories are dead.
[ Knives is just stupid. ]
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Don't kill them off. If there is somehow hope for me not to end up in a coffin one way or another, then there is hope for you and Vash.
But it depends on the path you take to get there. That's all. The same with me.
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It's a strange thing for him to think about... Because him and Vash will likely have long lives to go. The passage of time is so different to them. ]
I never knew dead men could talk so much. [ Honestly, this ship has been the most socialization he's had since he was a child. ] What changed you here?
[ He doesn't see anything worth much. ]
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The question catches him off guard, and he hesitates thoughtfully, glancing out of the deck glass.]
I'm... not sure how much you know about me exactly... I have never... really had friends. Other children avoided me because I was a cripple and a Zaunite. And as I got older, I preferred solitude because it was what I knew, and I didn't have to navigate all of these tiresome social interactions.
I have, um, done some terrible things out of... the desperation to live, too. I wanted a normal lifespan. I was so afraid of dying and death.
I thought it would always be this way.
But I guess the answer is: dying changed me. Having what I feared most happen... made me realize the mistakes I was making.
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Knives is oddly a good listener and observer despite his superiority-inferiority complex. ]
I have little interest in your personal lives. [ Unless it benefits him. ] Not many people can say that death was a humbling experience, but you were lucky.
[ He can't relate because dying would definitely make him a worse person which is crazy because he's already bad. ]
You're still returning to death, back in your home planet.
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YOU NEVER KNOW, maybe dying would fix Knives, too. (delusional)]
Yes, more than likely. I don't know what the future holds for me after all this. But... I've learned... to not be afraid of the future so much that I squander the precious time I have right here in the present.
I've... made friends. And, yes, I don't think for a moment a lot of humans aren't still terrible. I won't forget how badly others treated me when I was young. But I have found ones, somehow, that aren't so bad, which makes holding onto those memories so tiring.
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It would only fix Knives if he stayed permanently dead...... And seeing Vash on the brink of death would probably change his tune, too.
He isn't obtuse to know there are humans who are kinder than others, but he has seen how they turn on each other during the worst of times... He has seen them turn on his brother. His cynicism and pessimism are stronger, paranoia and fear abundant. Charles really tried his best. ]
And you have not the smallest intention of leaving to a different world.
[ Humans care to survive so he's like ...? ]
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Oh. Well, perhaps. I'd like to, but... that depends on a certain purple, horned person.
[Knives does not fucking care, but he just naturally seems a bit shy regarding this. ANYWAY.]
I don't really have any attachments. Jayce has all of our research for Hextech, so he should be fine. Wherever Lucien wants to go, I will follow for... whatever little bit of time I have left.
[People might can heal him, or whatever magic bullshittery, but he isn't going to bank so heavily on that without knowing.]
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Knives really does not care about your gay agenda, even though he basically gave Vash a boyfriend. I don't know the purpose of this in Stampede yet. ]
You've grown complacent in a different way, Viktor. Your ambitions have shifted.
[ It isn't a strange thing... But he's used to mad scientists staying insanely mad. ]
I'm sure he will find a way to keep you going, no matter how cursed it will be.