[well, now she's going to bother them every week because she doesn't want them to think they're too unsettling for friends? not that she'll ever admit this but listen.]
There's no harm in asking. [she says, and then:] Just that. Curiosity. You're all a little mysterious, you can't blame a girl for being interested.
We are suspicious to different degrees. [ Normal to them. They do agree. ] Most of us have been friendly and open to conversation I find, except for two who are a little overeager to abscond. I still sense that they care.
It reminds me there are kind people in the world. The universe?
[It reminds me there are kind people in the world. she rolls that around in her head, resting her chin in her hand, elbow on the table. there are kind people in the world. it makes her a little achy, makes her miss home. miss her friends. it's only been a couple of days, but when you like on top of seven other people for months, you find that you miss waking up to them singing as they get ready for the day, the sound of sword sharpening, sleepy laughter and jokes.]
You're all... mostly fine to talk to. [this is rude but so is she, so.] I haven't contacted Callisto, Europa, or Io yet, I think.
[she's still getting used to names.] But I will. If we're all in the same small space for eight weeks, I might as well.
[ They lift a hand to cover where their mouth would be. It's hard to see with the helmet, but the vibes are smiling... Some amusement, general positive feelings, though muted. ]
You are free to speak your mind. I heard Callisto fled immediately, then Europa not too long after the second day of orientation.
[you are all so tolerant of her being rude and you shouldn't be
her lips twitch at the corners when they cover their mouth.]
I would be unhappy to have to stand in front of some forty-odd people and be yelled at. [so she gets it.] You are a convenient scapegoat.
[and sure she doesn't quite trust any of them yet, but she's smart enough to know that sometimes, people are doing the best with the circumstances they've been handed, and she's not so quick to write them off.]
[ unfortunately a number of them have service worker personalities ]
It still reflects on us poorly as your seniors. [ But they don't seem like they think they should get scolded. They think it's funny. ] Against a common enemy, the masses band together, is that right?
I would agree that it would be a waste of your time and energy... But some express and work in different ways. [ They are understanding. ] How have you found the ship locations so far?
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[ A very neutral response. They don't seem to mind the nebulousness. ]
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You've never asked?
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I haven't, no. I'm used to my presence being unsettling and I've accepted that.
[ So why ask? ]
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... I don't think you're unsettling.
[but she's also a weirdo so like.]
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[ They're surprised by that, though tepid surprise. ]
Perhaps I should ask them. It won't change how we interact, but it would be a truth I can carry with me. [ ... ] Why the curiosity?
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There's no harm in asking. [she says, and then:] Just that. Curiosity. You're all a little mysterious, you can't blame a girl for being interested.
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We are suspicious to different degrees. [ Normal to them. They do agree. ] Most of us have been friendly and open to conversation I find, except for two who are a little overeager to abscond. I still sense that they care.
It reminds me there are kind people in the world. The universe?
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You're all... mostly fine to talk to. [this is rude but so is she, so.] I haven't contacted Callisto, Europa, or Io yet, I think.
[she's still getting used to names.] But I will. If we're all in the same small space for eight weeks, I might as well.
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You are free to speak your mind. I heard Callisto fled immediately, then Europa not too long after the second day of orientation.
[ They do appreciate that she's trying, though. ]
Thank you for giving us a chance.
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her lips twitch at the corners when they cover their mouth.]
I would be unhappy to have to stand in front of some forty-odd people and be yelled at. [so she gets it.] You are a convenient scapegoat.
[and sure she doesn't quite trust any of them yet, but she's smart enough to know that sometimes, people are doing the best with the circumstances they've been handed, and she's not so quick to write them off.]
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It still reflects on us poorly as your seniors. [ But they don't seem like they think they should get scolded. They think it's funny. ] Against a common enemy, the masses band together, is that right?
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[she watches them for a moment.]
I'm annoyed to be here, but threatening all of you will do exactly nothing for me. I'm not an idiot.
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I would agree that it would be a waste of your time and energy... But some express and work in different ways. [ They are understanding. ] How have you found the ship locations so far?
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... I like the observation deck. The stars are dizzying, but there's something beautiful about them. They're so... close, in comparison.
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It feels like the entire cosmos is within grasp.
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[she picks at her sleeve, absently.]
I don't know that I could tell you the names of stars or constellations in my own world. I think that's more Temenos's wheelhouse.
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[ Which is a disappointment, they think. ]
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[ They say fondly. ]