[ just. squeezes hand. there's a long silence, and maybe he just takes a minute to drink a little tea, placing the cup back on his knee. ]
Real shitty stuff to think about. Look at how unlucky we are...
[ a glance upwards, it's a tired smile. and it maybe wants to try, but it's far too burned and tired to pass the threshold. he's a matchstick at the very end of its handle. ]
It will just be a very difficult farewell goodbye, my friend. For now, I'll enjoy the company I get to share. [ heavier, tired: ] It's a privilege.
I... am loathe to take something like this when there are people better suited for you. People who aren't going to start out hardly having their head together.
I still can't remember half my team. I can't even recall how we got here, I'm piecemeal at most.
[ thoughtful, quiet. ]
But... if that is what you want... stay with me. Walk with me, even if I'm just going to turn to earth. I care about you, too, you know. I just don't know if I can... if I'm able...
[he gives him a little grin, there, small as it is.]
You've, ah, seen what the inside of my head's like, I can't really talk about having it together or not. Don't really care about you not remembering everything either.
I mean... I do! I do care about things being missing for you, just that it doesn't-! You know what I mean, right?
[it doesn't bother him. it doesn't change what he wants to give io, here.]
I'll walk with you, if you'll walk with me. Wherever that ends up leading here.
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Real shitty stuff to think about. Look at how unlucky we are...
[ a glance upwards, it's a tired smile. and it maybe wants to try, but it's far too burned and tired to pass the threshold. he's a matchstick at the very end of its handle. ]
It will just be a very difficult farewell goodbye, my friend. For now, I'll enjoy the company I get to share. [ heavier, tired: ] It's a privilege.
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[what's a little more on top of it all. an extra sting on top of the hurt of something removed.]
...if you feel like it'd be too much, I get it. I do. But I still want to be here for you more than I have been already, if... if you'll take it.
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I still can't remember half my team. I can't even recall how we got here, I'm piecemeal at most.
[ thoughtful, quiet. ]
But... if that is what you want... stay with me. Walk with me, even if I'm just going to turn to earth. I care about you, too, you know. I just don't know if I can... if I'm able...
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[he gives him a little grin, there, small as it is.]
You've, ah, seen what the inside of my head's like, I can't really talk about having it together or not. Don't really care about you not remembering everything either.
I mean... I do! I do care about things being missing for you, just that it doesn't-! You know what I mean, right?
[it doesn't bother him. it doesn't change what he wants to give io, here.]
I'll walk with you, if you'll walk with me. Wherever that ends up leading here.