You deserve it too, y'know. While you can have it.
[he's never let go of his hand. if he pulls away, maybe gregor will reconsider, but for now-- no.]
...look, I don't know what's going to happen to me, either. Someday our contract will be up, and our time just might be, too, once Dante can't turn the clock back for us.
Maybe it would've been best to just not get close to anyone here, but I couldn't quite work that way, permanent or not.
[ just. squeezes hand. there's a long silence, and maybe he just takes a minute to drink a little tea, placing the cup back on his knee. ]
Real shitty stuff to think about. Look at how unlucky we are...
[ a glance upwards, it's a tired smile. and it maybe wants to try, but it's far too burned and tired to pass the threshold. he's a matchstick at the very end of its handle. ]
It will just be a very difficult farewell goodbye, my friend. For now, I'll enjoy the company I get to share. [ heavier, tired: ] It's a privilege.
I... am loathe to take something like this when there are people better suited for you. People who aren't going to start out hardly having their head together.
I still can't remember half my team. I can't even recall how we got here, I'm piecemeal at most.
[ thoughtful, quiet. ]
But... if that is what you want... stay with me. Walk with me, even if I'm just going to turn to earth. I care about you, too, you know. I just don't know if I can... if I'm able...
[he gives him a little grin, there, small as it is.]
You've, ah, seen what the inside of my head's like, I can't really talk about having it together or not. Don't really care about you not remembering everything either.
I mean... I do! I do care about things being missing for you, just that it doesn't-! You know what I mean, right?
[it doesn't bother him. it doesn't change what he wants to give io, here.]
I'll walk with you, if you'll walk with me. Wherever that ends up leading here.
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[he's never let go of his hand. if he pulls away, maybe gregor will reconsider, but for now-- no.]
...look, I don't know what's going to happen to me, either. Someday our contract will be up, and our time just might be, too, once Dante can't turn the clock back for us.
Maybe it would've been best to just not get close to anyone here, but I couldn't quite work that way, permanent or not.
...that includes you.
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Real shitty stuff to think about. Look at how unlucky we are...
[ a glance upwards, it's a tired smile. and it maybe wants to try, but it's far too burned and tired to pass the threshold. he's a matchstick at the very end of its handle. ]
It will just be a very difficult farewell goodbye, my friend. For now, I'll enjoy the company I get to share. [ heavier, tired: ] It's a privilege.
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[what's a little more on top of it all. an extra sting on top of the hurt of something removed.]
...if you feel like it'd be too much, I get it. I do. But I still want to be here for you more than I have been already, if... if you'll take it.
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I still can't remember half my team. I can't even recall how we got here, I'm piecemeal at most.
[ thoughtful, quiet. ]
But... if that is what you want... stay with me. Walk with me, even if I'm just going to turn to earth. I care about you, too, you know. I just don't know if I can... if I'm able...
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[he gives him a little grin, there, small as it is.]
You've, ah, seen what the inside of my head's like, I can't really talk about having it together or not. Don't really care about you not remembering everything either.
I mean... I do! I do care about things being missing for you, just that it doesn't-! You know what I mean, right?
[it doesn't bother him. it doesn't change what he wants to give io, here.]
I'll walk with you, if you'll walk with me. Wherever that ends up leading here.