[The thoughts make him pause, horrified to hear them bounced back to him. He had not thought about them since, and he had not seen them displayed for everyone to see.
He had nothing to live for, that had been true. Creating Hextech--no one even knew his name. It was all Jayce, and he had preferred it because he just wanted to help others, not be praised.
But it's different here. It's different now. There are people important to him he wants to live for. He may not deserve to be alive, but fuck it, he is going to be alive!
All at once, he starts squirming and thrashing again, digging, clawing, climbing, yelling until his throat is hoarse from a sound that he can't even hear escape.]
Let me go!
[There is a boy with a lame leg and a cane on a bank, following a metal toy boat as it drifts down the polluted stream...]
[ the boy follows the boat, teetering, tottering along...
there's a light there... in the water... in the dirty, filthy polluted water. there are voices coming from the water, ripples. ripples coming faster and faster.
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He had nothing to live for, that had been true. Creating Hextech--no one even knew his name. It was all Jayce, and he had preferred it because he just wanted to help others, not be praised.
But it's different here. It's different now. There are people important to him he wants to live for. He may not deserve to be alive, but fuck it, he is going to be alive!
All at once, he starts squirming and thrashing again, digging, clawing, climbing, yelling until his throat is hoarse from a sound that he can't even hear escape.]
Let me go!
[There is a boy with a lame leg and a cane on a bank, following a metal toy boat as it drifts down the polluted stream...]
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there's a light there... in the water... in the dirty, filthy polluted water. there are voices coming from the water, ripples. ripples coming faster and faster.
faster and faster and faster.
viktor yells—and the water suddenly rises up in one great all-consuming splash. numbers and letters, words, memories, his name, the faces of those he loves. all at once. everywhere. ]