[ welcome to the bar again, our usual date night spot. there's a kurosawa film being holo-projected onto a blank wall (it's seven samurai), and thebe is just sat on a stool stirring a drink and bounding their leg.
when the alert comes, there's just a very mild JUMP from her before she just kind of goes back to staring off into space. ]
Another long night... I'm kind of glad it's been just us these past few weeks.
[ it like. lets your brain have some peace in comparison to having 5-10 clamoring people. ]
[ yeah, the groups are really not her favorite, though this has been well-established at this point.
baiken, unbalded, is half watching half vibing. her eyepatch is gone due to the rust being problematic and a nuisance, but otherwise... same ol' baiken. ]
Even with my BTC liver, I definitely can't drink as much as you can. Or... I guess I can, but not nearly as much of a benefit of getting drunk. Heh. I'd have to drink a whole case of beer.
So you're gonna fight to survive. Find another bar. Do something else. [ she turns a little to better look at her. ]
You don't need to figure it out now. I sure as hell don't have any answers. You've made it this far, so keep going.
[ she is not saying this out of optimism. it's hard when you keep losing. a past lover, the bar - it's all a loss. it's hard. and baiken knows she's being a hypocrite. however, her miserable life isn't one she wants replicated, especially not by someone as bright as jill. ]
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when the alert comes, there's just a very mild JUMP from her before she just kind of goes back to staring off into space. ]
Another long night... I'm kind of glad it's been just us these past few weeks.
[ it like. lets your brain have some peace in comparison to having 5-10 clamoring people. ]
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[ yeah, the groups are really not her favorite, though this has been well-established at this point.
baiken, unbalded, is half watching half vibing. her eyepatch is gone due to the rust being problematic and a nuisance, but otherwise... same ol' baiken. ]
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[ slides a drink over to her today and will just join right in. ]
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Hah, more like the opposite. [ sip ] But I don't care about that.
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You should be tryin' to stay alive anyway.
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You should to, if you're holding me to that standard.
[ shoots back drink. ]
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You're being held to a different standard. You still have your whole life ahead of you.
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And you've got a life left too. I don't care about how much of it you've dedicated to your revenge, and how that road is paved by it.
[ puts down glass. pours again. ]
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[ she isn't agitated or hostile, but she is not happy with the direction this conversation is taking. ]
It's been a shitty waste, but giving up makes it all for nothing.
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It is. You made that choice. I understand that.
[ watches her. ]
I still want you to live.
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Be nice if life went according to our wishes, wouldn't it?
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Whether it's by choice or not.
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[ taps glass with her nails a moment then stops. ]
So I don't know.
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You don't need to figure it out now. I sure as hell don't have any answers. You've made it this far, so keep going.
[ she is not saying this out of optimism. it's hard when you keep losing. a past lover, the bar - it's all a loss. it's hard. and baiken knows she's being a hypocrite. however, her miserable life isn't one she wants replicated, especially not by someone as bright as jill. ]